Waltz?

Just thinking about how it is like I take one step forward and two steps backward with things. Like I was going to get into shape and what not, but after going home my diet got sidetracked. Thanks mom. Plus over the weekend I smoked a cigarette (but I hated it, so that is good). Not only that but with relationships too. I can't seem to find anyone. And when I do I end up either waiting too long or just fucking it up somehow. Like right now I cannot decide on who to go after, even though there are a few I would like to persue. Meh, I guess time will tell.

Haven't been doing much again. Friday night was drunken fun (and I didn't black out this time). Many don't remember much, for me and my roommate it was more or less a blur. Saturday I went home and proceeded to get pissed at my parents as usual. Sunday I came back in time to hear of the Steeler's victory and Super Bowl trip. Then we proceeded to drink and I got depressed thinking about someone from high school that I thought I had dealt with. But I know I never will deal with it fully.

Today I didn't go to class. Instead two of my quadmates went to the March for Life (anti-abortion rally) and my roommate was one of them. So I just woke up and decided to enjoy myself with even more sleep. Made it up in time for Dinner. Looked for grad schools online when it comes to philosophy. I found one nearby that has a Masters program and it will only cost me about 3k per semester. So I might be going to grad school after all, yay. Did some ethics homework and that was about it. Should be getting to bed soon so I can wake up and get some shit done. Tommorrow is the hellish 7 hour day of classes.

Oh, I only had 634 songs on winamp, I searched my pc and put the rest into the folder that winamp was reading. I now have 836 songs, so I am pleased with today.

Hopefully

Waiting to hear about a job opprotunity soon. Decided the desk is something that I really don't want to do. Especially because the person in charge never did return my call. So that is lovely, especially since nobody is working during quite a few hours of the day. My quadmate round eye Chris said that I could probably get a job up here at the one in Wheeling since both it and the Moundsville store are hurting for people.

Yesterday: Didn't go to my first two classes because I had two papers due. Thankfully I made it to the last 2 and got the papers in. I also made the much loved quote to my ethics professor (and also the professor of the class I skipped right before it) was "I heard my alarm clock. I just didn't listen to it." During Watercolor the professor said that I was "advanced, gifted, and talented" along with "beyond everyone else here" in a normal speaking voice. Kind of pissed me off because I felt he should have been helping those less skilled (even though I'm just remembering some vague memories about high school when it comes to watercolor). I guess it is his teaching style to let us roam free then slowly herd us to the slaughter.

Ended up watching Clockwork Orange, it gave me ideas :-p

Today: Stayed up to late again, went to class and found that I had done an alright job when it came to a blind paper. By blind I mean that the professor gave us a subject, yet did not define how he wanted the paper done. So I got a 3/5 but I know what to do now thank God.

Took a long ass nap

Got up and went to my night class. Yeah, that was a waste. Atleast I got the book and it is informative. Plus it isn't too boring, even though those around me fall asleep.

Right now I am bored, hence the posting. Also, tommorrow I get 30 bucks since I will have finally completed the psych study. That will be some much loved moolah.

I kicked the booze, and then...........

Well, it occurs to me that alcohol can kick back quite furiously.

Mainly I was in a rather funkish state due to the hectic schedule so I bought a 12 pack. Some of it is still left. Basically I got a good buzz going on (near the border of what I call drunk). And now I am feeling fantastic a day later. I guess it is something that I just felt wrong without. But thanks to my schedule and possible new job I will not have much time to drink.

I guess the booze for me is something that adds to the fire, but too much can douse it out.

Anyway, had a good conversation with a Jesuit in ethics today. He was trying to convince us to fly planes into what we hate. Basically showing there is no extreme to ethics. It was fun, guess philosophy really is my major.

Anyway, I've got to get up at the crack of dawn to do laundry, homework, and then get the financial aid shit done.......along with a follow up about my possible job. Later.

Well, it was fun while it lasted.

I've given up abusing alcohol. Yes, that's right. No more semi-blacked out wookie on a monday night for all you cheering fans. Don't worry, I'll still get hammered and drink in moderation every now and then. But not nearly to the extent or legendary prowess I once had. I'm 22 now people, I've got to grow up. :-p

Anyway, got bored over break. I mean motherfucking bored. So I decided to start posting on an old Magic the Gathering forum and might pick up the cards again. I love seeing 12 year old boys cry and throw fits as I knock them down to negative life totals.

Got back yesterday to good ole Uncle Tom's Cabin (aka WJU). Everyone is back so far, minus a demon speaker. Been playing the bejesus out of Ninja Gaiden Black and we installed a ps2 today. It is on lone from the Luke S. Shepherd collection. He found it in the trash, yes, in the trash. All we had to do was buy the cables and We <3 Katamari (and by "we" I mean Chirs Lim).

As for now though, I am off. Got to get to class, buy books, sign away life in business office, and then go job hunting. So that will be a fun day indeed.