It's been a long time coming

Wow, I completely forgot about this place with my facebook and lesser myspace addictions.

Thought I should give this place an update. I've been at teletech for almost 6 months now, I plan to put in a full year before I quit. Turns out I got a raise as well, but that was because of more beauracracy than I care to talk about. Plus my spelling is going to be downhill because I've been drinking once again.

I realized that I should no longer try and analyze myself anymore. Recently my dreams have been rather scary and now I've questioned my own being. It is something that I knew was coming, but just not what would bring it on.

My relationships are still rather cold. I keep pushing myself away from those that I do care for. It is for the best I feel. I cannot stand the feeling of letting someone down, which has haunted me for many years and now has come to a head tonight, hence the drinking. If you think it is you, you are vain, this is for someone who is no longer with us. It is something that I constantly deal with and no longer wish to talk about.

It is my senior year here at WJU. Sadly, I will still graduate before some others. This is sad mainly because I even failed out for a full year and a half yet am still finishing before them.

I cannot wait until grad school. I'm proabably going to go to a large state school in NC. My first choice is still West Chester University in northern PA (it is where many of the "Jackass" guys are from). However, I took another road trip to NC (for autofair) and have fallen in love with the scenic aspects. I feel like Captain Britian to an extent though..........and if you can get that reference you need to get laid.

Oh, and I am still in the quads. I'm in 235. Yes, that is our lounge. Basically what happened was some straight up bullshit and heresay that I ended up gaining my own room. Either way, I am happy with the idea. Granted my name has gotten some mud on it, but the claims are unsubstaintiated. I'm happy though that 2 of my drinking buddies live with me now.

Anyway, this weekend should be a hoot. I honestly don't know what I am going to do. I feel that it is going to come with alot of drama though.

I'm out....