Officially Unemployed

As of 10pm on December 3rd 2005 I am officially without a job. Yes, I did quit my first job at Mayo's Exxon. It was a rather interesting career at a place I will never forget.

My last day was filled with all the customers I enjoyed serving and a few that I hated. Thankfully though, it was a mere few. I got to say my goodbyes to all of those that I had grown somewhat fond of. Many of which did not want to see me go or wondered why. I explained that I had just had enough headaches and that it was no longer feasible for me to continue working when it came time to pay the bills. Thinking back on it makes me feel terrible for quitting, but that I will elaborate on later in this post. I know that time will fade the memories of these people and the job, but for now it is truly something remarkable in my mind.

Of course it was most difficult to tell those that were my co-workers that I had quit. Many knew it would happen and some made their intentions known that they didnt want me to leave. But alas, even the best things have to end sometime.

Over the summer, fall and into this winter I became truly amazed with this job. Everyone had their own story and look. I got to examine people from all walks of life. It is impressive how a simple gas station is a place where people can talk and even meet. It is bridging a socio-economic gap that has become prevalent in today's society I feel. The common need for gas and automobile repair is something that could be lost within the next 50 years and something that makes me feel as if I am apart of history.

As I have just elaborated a tiny bit of my thoughts on the job into this post, the time has come for what I feel must be said. The job was good to build character and allowed me to take deeper insights into the individual instead of just lumping them together. Ironically though, the job made my sociopathic side blossom. I felt good when I saw those who were too ignorant or just stupid fail. When people would pull up to full serve I often did not want to tell them otherwise and watch them pay an extra 30 cents a gallon more. This sick side of me was sure this was social darwinism at work.

That being said, I should probably reflect more on this subject myself and try to correct some of the irrational thinking it led too while remembering what was and who will be.

Sorry for being serious.